{Thursday, December 15, 2011} 4:11 PM
Why?

Am I not good enough?

I'm happy for the girls who made it, but it also saddens me that I can't be living the exact same dream as them.

Or did yeye hear/see my fear of going away and not being able to see Ian grow up?

Well, I don't know. Typing this makes everything worse.

However, they say another door opens when one closes. Someone opened the door for me and I should embrace and live with it.

Because I can.